Never meant to hurt you or make you sad
Never meant to alert you or make you feel bad
Didn’t know how destructive I was
Until my last shot was one too much

Never meant to burden you or pull you down
To misuse you as a substitute mom
Didn’t know how destructive I was
Until your last shot was one too much

Just like a narcissist with low self-esteem
I showed my ugliness when I felt weak
I was burning bridges to build them up again
Until only burned bridges remained

I was sucking in your milk just like a child
But when my thirst was stilled, I made you cry
It was your heart I was gonna rob
Before I threw it away like mud

Today I felt the fever again
To inject my poison into your veins
But I resisted for the first time
And broke the vicious paradigm

You were the last one I wanted to debase
You were the first one I wanted to praise
Were we too weak or were we too rough
When the last shot was one too much

Maybe one day we'll be able to trust
That the last shot be gone like dust